© Sascha Darlington
Do you know what it feels like to have
something curdle inside of you?
Lumpy and warm and full.
You made me feel that.
I thought feelings inside were dead.
A simple smile, a gentle, non-intentional caress
of your index finger
on my elbow awakened dormancy.
You brushed your lips on mine
As if by accident
As accidents like this should fall
Your eyes portended more
Summer passed to autumn
And burnished leaves and slippery rain
I committed to forget you
My feet splashed puddles as I ran
My hair dripped with icy rain
Cold ebbed into my bones
I ran to forget you.
With every footfall, rain splashing upward
I felt the coldness permeate,
Not only my body, but my mind
That’s how it was through autumn and winter.
In spring, still running,
You appeared, a phoenix
So brilliant in your shaded colors
Hurt, I tried to run around
But like a magnet, you drew me near
“Sorry, so sorry.”
You held me tight although I fought
For dignity, for pride, for being thrown aside
“I never meant to hurt you.”
Kisses on my temple, brow.
You enfold me in your arms.
My eyes closed. Compromise.
12 thoughts on “Curdle #amwriting”
I lov the things worked out between the and your image of ‘curdling on the inside’ is very interesting. At first it made me think of accidentally drinking milk that is soar and well curdling, separating the curds from the whey to make cheese too. But the image of soar milk, remains making me think how sick that makes a person feel and that perhaps his presence made her past ”curdling love, ‘ something true and healthy! It did not make her sick anymore because Their love is genuine. After he leaves the ‘cold permeates’ and she is ‘ dorment,’ until he returns to live her again and they ‘compromise’ over whatever issue made them come apart. Very neat poem. Fantastic imagery especially with the curdling.
Thanks, Mandi, so much for this comment. 🙂
https://sanskriti977.wordpress.com/2017/06/24/best-day-to-worst-day/my new post please go through it
Love the poem. And the photo, but what is it? I would love to be able to enlarge it. Flower petals with butterfly wings and ants??? Intriguingly gorgeous but I must know what it is!!!
A WP friend introduced me to Deep Dream Generator from google. It’s amazingly addictive, here is the link: https://deepdreamgenerator.com/ You plug in your photo and choose some settings and then it generates artwork. There are three different modes. It’s really cool to play with and I apologize now if you end up playing too long with it. 🙂 I think my original photo was chrysanthemums.
Oh oh. Playing with fire, here, Sascha..But my fault. I had to ask. Here I go……
I’ve been playing with it. Don’t quite know what I’m doing or how to get them onto my blog, but I’ll just play and hopefully figure it out. Thanks, Sascha.
It does take a bit of playing. The little thing that looks like part of a watch is the “tools” bit and let’s you download.
I worked on a photo once and then wanted to work on it again but keep the original changes. Seems you can’t do that? You just have to choose one effect?
You can start again with the same photo. Just start a new generate.