If you’re participating in the A to Z, are you a pantser, like me? Or are you a planner? Someday I would like to grow up and be a planner. 🙂
Done Waiting for Real Life
Yesterday you looked at him, really looked at him for the first time since, well, you can’t remember. In stark light, you saw how he’d aged. How had that happened? How had 25 years slipped through your fingers like sand?
Now here you are at the hospital, waiting.
Appropriate. You’re good at waiting. You’ve been waiting your whole life for your real life to begin while being swallowed in a psychedelic maelstrom of turgid thoughts.
People talk about wake-up calls. Is this yours? If he lives, will you allow yourself to live? Invoke the deity of life? Laugh again? Repair the chasm in your raft and leave the shore?
The doctor, young enough to be your son, begins talking. Words like high blood pressure, stress, panic attack swarm. He’s going to be all right.
Backsliding. You feel yourself do it immediately, even as you go to see him, until you see him, pale, small in a hospital gown, vulnerable. Something wrenches in your heart. Something grabs your brain–a shock.
This is life. Life you’ve been throwing away day by day by day with your inertia.
You grab his hand, lace your fingers as you haven’t done in forever and breathe in the first breath of your re-life.
19 thoughts on “H is for Hospital #atozchallenge #amwriting”
Thank you. 🙂
Your welcome. Very well done. I felt that.
Lovely piece! As for me, I’m an A-Z pantser haha! I too envy the planners.
I know, right? They have a posting each day at the same time and I am still trying to figure out my location. At least last year, I had my a to z’s figured out. Thanks, Emily. I’ll be by shortly. 🙂
Brilliant post…. I must confess I am a pantser… Never ment to be I planned to prepare but time ran away from me!
Thanks. I love your blog. I’m a veg and find so few blogs that help me figure out new recipes.
Last year I had my theme days planned out. This year I didn’t even do that, although I intended. The road to hell and all that? But I don’t believe in hell so ….. 🙂
Nice, very nice
Thank you so much! 🙂
Semi-pantster this year, planner next year fo shizzle
Let’s pinkie swear on that…both of us! 🙂
If only it were that easy to re-charge a relationship. But I love a hopeful ending/beginning. BTW, if there’s no plan, that’s one less thing to go wrong. 🙂
Oh, I think she let more than a relationship go. I think she was waiting for a grand statement, something from the universe to tell her that her time was now.
Stunning! Crisp and just so well written, no words wasted here. I love this ending.
Thanks so much, Anne. I so much respect you opinion! 🙂
Pantser here! Great post, btw. 🙂
Thank you. I’d say: yay, pantsers, but it’s kind of hell in a way. As you probably know. 🙂
Yes, i definitely agree.
Sometimes you have to almost lose something to realise how much it means to you. Nice post. I’m a planner through necessity. If I didn’t plan ahead I would never be able to take part due to lack of time/chaotic parent life! 🙂