Observations: It took a long time to get started today. Much self-examination, wondering why I’m doing this, how embarrassing my writing is. I’m also reading a book and thinking, my writing isn’t anything like this. Why kid myself? đ Probably shouldn’t read a published novel and compare it to my NaNo writing.
Anyway, once I decided just to shut my inner demons down who want me to fail, I started typing. I have a ways to go before I catch up and don’t know that it can be done today. Regardless, I’m putting this one as 15a and believe there will be a 15b in the immediate offing.
Disclaimer: A very bad draft lies ahead: proceed at your own risk.
Total word count: 22,335
2670 words behind.
You can read previous sections here.
Chapter Ten
For the next two weeks, I pretend my life is the way it was before the great revelation, except that I have a talking dog who seems to want to mold me in her image, not physically, mentally. My days are filled with soup making that makes people happy or thoughtful, and trade is the way it was, even if I get comments like: âMade anyone fly lately, Sophie?â
I always smile, even if behind my lips my teeth are grinding.
I am waiting for the next shoe to drop.
Isla informs me that Heath Lawrence left in an SUV with darkened windows, and I remember the mousy chick who was glaring at us on Halloween. And the blond tower also seems to have disappeared. Once again, new male blood in Rosemead is back to zip. Câest la vie. I seem to possess, or am, a powerful male deterrent.
In the evenings, if Iâm not hanging out in town with my sisters or Nikki, Iâm at home with Moira reading, and sometimes re-reading, the witch history of my family, while waiting for some magical power to awaken within me. It doesnât happen. Or if it has, itâs very, very subtle.
âYour life is boring,â Moira says one evening while sitting in front of the fireplace. The afternoon had turned sharply colder with slate gray skies, steady wind, and that scent to the air signaling snow.
I glance at her above my tablet and the article Iâve been reading about hereditary witches on a blog. The comments have almost been more interesting than the article.
âThanks for the input.â
Moira yawns to emphasize her point.
âLook, I donât even know why youâre here, except for the chicken.â
âThe chickenâs good. You could add a little spice to the skin before baking.â
Now Iâm taking cooking lessons from a dog. I go back to my article.
âLetâs say you and I go to that bar place in town.â
âLetâs say you and I have a quiet evening at home. Iâll make some hot chocolate and you can have some milk.â
âLetâs say you stop acting like youâre eighty and letâs go be young while we can.â
âLook, dogââ
âLook, witch, what are you accomplishing by living in the little house in the big woods by yourself? Life is to be lived. Go live it!â
Staring at Moira, Iâm positive that somehow sheâs projecting my mother who has said all of those things and more. I glance at the time on my tablet.
âItâs 9 pm. I get up at 6 am. Whatâs the point of going to a bar now? Why not tomorrow? Iâll just stay in town after I close âSoupâs Onâââ
âI think tonight. In fact, Iâm positive tonight is the night.â
âAs intriguing as that is, it doesnât change the factsââ
âThat youâre an old fuddy-duddy at 26?â
Pressing my buttons, thatâs what sheâs doing, and sheâs doing it as if sheâs been doing it a very long time, which makes me wonderâŠ
âDo familiar dogs live longer than other dogs?â
âTrying to change the conversation?â
âAnswer my question.â
âYou answer mine first.â
âNo. Iâm not trying to change the conversation because oddly enough, youâre like a dog with a boneâŠhahaha.â
Moira rolls her eyes. âAs if I couldnât see that one coming, witch. As for my longevity, letâs say itâs complicated.â
âYou say that a lot.â
Moira does her doggy version of shrugging but doesnât elucidate. This is part of it. Part of everything thatâs making me so frustrated right now. I get a book of my ancestors that doesnât really have any information about who I am or what role my sisters and I have in the scheme of things. I have this familiar dog who wonât really provide any information. I feel like Iâm walking through a dense forest blind and itâs driving me nuts.
âEven more reason to go to the bar. Get a drink. Talk to a nice guy.â
âAll the nice guys in Rosemead are taken.â
Moira disappears into the mudroom and then returns with my boots in her mouth. Great, dog saliva on my favorite boots.
âYou should be so lucky,â she says. She nudges the boots closer to me. âFancy, by the way. Nice plastic boots.â
âI donât wear leather.â
It figures I would have an omnivorous snob dog for a familiar. Sheâll probably be giving me fashion hints next.
âWouldnât hurt.â
I glare at her. âIs there any way I can stop you from reading my thoughts?â
âLike itâs a pleasure for me to hear the level of nonsense you think about? And, no, I donât need a purple polka dot slicker for the rain. Iâm a dog. I have a great undercoat and the use of towel to dry me when I get wet is highly encouraged. Iâd appreciate not being a laughing stock. And, no, no, no pink.â
âOn that we agree.â
âGood.â
âGood.â
She sits upright waiting, her liquid brown eyes moving from my boots to me as if instructing me what I should do with them. This time I roll my eyes.
âWhy should we go?â
âThe man pretending to be a Russian will be there. Itâs time for you two to have a chat.â
âHow do you know this?â More to the point, why does my familiar have special powers and I donât?
Sighing, I slip into my boots and am about to grab my jacket when her teeth nab the cuff of my blue jean leg.
âPlease at least look in the mirror first.â
And here comes the fashion advice.
At her behest, I change from my vintage Zeppelin t-shirt, loaned to me by my Gran and never returned, into a dark green v-neck shirt with bell sleeves that Iâd forgotten I had. Wondering why I am going to all this trouble, I apply eye liner, mascara, and a smear of colored lip gloss. So rarely do I wear makeup that Iâm always a little shocked at the transformation when I do. I step back.
âYouâll pass. Letâs go.â
âYouâre going too?â
âOf course. Smokey Daveâs lets dogs in after they stop selling cooked food.â
I grin at Moira. âAre you hoping for some doggy action?â
âNo. Iâm hoping to see something other than the walls of this place and the stockroom at Soupâs On. I want to know that a world still exists out there. A world with living, laughing breathing creatures living their livesâŠâ
âYou do get dramatic,â I say.
âOr sarcastic. Intuition is definitely not your thing.â
I consider calling Nikki to see if she wants to join us, but Moira immediately derails that idea. Just me and the pretending Russia. How does Moira know these things? Will she ever share how she knows? The thought crosses my mind that she could just be making things up. Weâll find out soon enough.
To my astonishment Smokey Daveâs is hopping. The parking lot is practically overflowing. Laughter and live music greet my ears as I get out of the car with Moira following at my heels. Suddenly I feel a little weird. Iâve never gone into Smokey Daveâs by myself. My Mom and Gran would both be disappointed to know that. As unapologetic feminists, they firmly believe a woman should go where she wants. Maybe thatâs the thing. Iâve never wanted to go to Smokey Daveâs by myself.
âYouâre not by yourself.â
âPlease donât make me talk to you.â
âJust think it. Havenât you figured out yet that you donât actually have to talk because: I. Can. Read. Your. Mind?â
I nod. Right. I do keep forgetting that. However, would it be weirder to be having a conversation in my head?
It’s a good thing to not sound like someone else. Express yourself. Use your voice. Write in your style. Unless you suck. I guarantee you don’t suck. I wouldn’t read these every day if you did. Nor would the 17 other bloggers who liked this post.