January was a good reading month but as a writing month, not so much. I’m hoping that changes as we go into February. Strike that. I will write more in February, not just try or hope.
Hmm. That looks like a lot of books. No wonder I haven’t been writing!
Yikes. So I only wrote 6 pieces of flash fiction and 4 poems. I have been working on a longer story in the background but this isn’t near enough writing!
I have felt mentally and physically better than I have in a while, a long while. I’ve made a promise to myself that I will not be dragged down by things that are out of my control and presumably not by things that are under my control as well. I’ve been trying to regain my “good” attitude so that I can share good feelings here and with everyone I encounter. Last year was a lesson to me. Now I can understand and empathize with people who fall into a dark chasm.
I know that my issues affected my blog and how I responded to comments or didn’t respond or didn’t interact at all. Depression comes with a stupefying paralysis of the just “not doing” kind, the “not caring” kind. Or sometimes the caring too much and not doing. I shed a lot of tears last year and it didn’t matter whether it was a beautiful day or not. I am glad that I am not in that place anymore but am a little frightened as to how easy that place was to find and how hard it was to extricate myself from it.
These past few weeks I’ve kept busy. I haven’t allowed myself to dwell on darkness. I’ve exercised. I’ve obviously kept myself busy by doing a lot of reading. And, I am trying to be upbeat and get myself back on target. Self-care is important. The advice of talking to yourself as you would a friend going through a bad time is the best advice. Be a friend to yourself.
All the best, Sascha